Today was my last day as a ED Teacher (Teacher that works with Emotionally Disturbed children)at the middle school. One would think I would be running out the doors and completely excited for the summer to start. Don't get me wrong because I'm super excited to be a full time mom but a strange thing happen to me today as I double checked my classroom to make sure I grabbed everything. I looked at my cleaned out room and thought "WOW, this year went by so fast". If you would have asked me in the beginning of the year I would have said something like "this is going to be a long and miserable year" But you know what, it wasn't. Granted I witnessed a spectrum of behaviors anything from suicidal attempts to flew blown melt downs but as I thought about some of my students and the SERIOUS progress they made my heart was full. I was overwhelmed with the spirit. I wanted to embrace that sweet moment when my classroom was empty, silence was present and thoughts and impressions filled my mind. I stood there and thought to myself "i'm standing on Holy ground". Other teachers would probably think I was crazy for saying that because they know some of my students but in all seriousness I really felt like I was standing on Holy ground. When Heavenly Father works with a soul to help others you are LITERALLY an instrument in HIS hands. I felt God's hand throughout this whole year. Helping me know what to do and say with a child that's so upset that wants to harm him/her self or others. He inspired me to know what to teach and how to teach it. He gave me strength when I was weak. He helped me articulate the words I needed to say to the parents and other team members for these children. He inspired me to know where to look when a child went AWOL. Oh He was with me! and because He was with me I was LITERALLY standing on Holy ground. As I stood there and said a silent prayer I felt that God was pleased with the work I performed. As I stood and said a silent prayer the veil seemed very thin to me. My heart is FULL! I found myself trying to run out of there not because I was so excited for school to be over but I didn't want anyone to see me cry. I should have shown more appreciation for all those who helped me along the way but I wasn't able to talk. Thank you to all my earth angels who helped me in one way or another. I love and appreciate you.
P.s. With that, I'm excited to start a new journey.
4 comments:
That was a beautiful post Nita and i'm so glad that you shared that. You are such a beautiful person inside and out, and i am so excited that you are expecting again.
Thanks Nita. You said it beautifully. I can't even count how many times I was down on my knees asking for help (usually in the bathroom) when working with troubled teens. The Lord is definitely with us especially when we're helping others.
Wow. That sounds like it was a great experience for you, although I know it was not always easy, but it's always the harder things that help us turn to God and grow all the more, isn't it? Thanks for being such a great example of turning to Him in everything! Love you!
I love reading your posts. what a beautiful opportunity. Your posts lift me up and make me want to be better. And congrats on having a new little girl on the way.
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